finally getting somewhere

I had felt like i was on a tv show, infront of a live audience, put on a sugery table and opened up. sitting through classes of such good but perceptive teaching i felt transparent. like evry thought they could read, every reaction was already written on the white board.

"I felt led this morning as i prayed that god wants me to teach specifically on curses" he announced at the beggining of class. after yeterdays 10 areas covered this was going to be a cool 3 hours teaching on cursing, binding words and things that stop blessing. The tongue corrupts the whole body, from the same mouth come blessing and curses, how can you praise god with the same mouth in which you curse someone? It was at the end of the class when he asked the holy spirit to come, praying in the name of jesus naming spirits praying specifically over things and breaking them, there were tears, there were hands raised for rebellion against parents, rebellion against god, if you have at any point let a spirit of rebellion in and operated under it, to repent, Witchcraft, disobedience. It was a powerful time.

I walked away from that class with a freedom i havent felt since ive been here, tonight i worshipped - i really worshipped. I stood and praised god with all of my heart, i drew again. I danced and didnt care what people thought, infact they didnt even enter into it! i wanted to praise god with everything within like it would kill me if i couldnt.

God was moving and doing stuff, it was never too late, i hadnt missed the moment, you sit stubbornly in your seat when you know with a burning inside to let god work, but fear keeps you from doing it, but not today. i wouldnt carry things any further. There was more god could do, there was deeper teaching and no more blocking stuff. time to learn.

If your sat there reading this knowing there is stuff in your life god has been prodding at, maybe just stuff you want to scream when someone goes near, can i say that repenting praying and asking the holy spirit to come is the best thing you could ever do, you may get emotional but no its not going to be pain forever, and your going to walk away full of freedom, - is that just a sloppy term banded around by hippy christians? NOPE. youll experience genuine joy, genuinly smile again. god is always there.